After

After the pictures and the posts
She tells you she loves you the most
Then she leaves and makes you think
What in you made her a ghost

Then you pick up a blade and make
All your qualities bleed to find
The bug in you which she hates
Tearing your image and ripping the mind

Then you swallow the pill so big
She now wants you no more, a change
Thinks you're not worth her time
Words like bullets, with your soul at range

You wake up alone, everyday
Holding your heart softly in your palm
Tears rolling down as you stare
The cracks, damage and the harm

Then you put it in a bag, and go out
To live the life you're supposed to
Carrying the bag on a shoulder
You smile so well. Pain? Who?

Pain? Who. The omnipresent.
Pain, you..
Why do I run away from you when you
Are the one who has always been there
After the party when everyone leaves
After work when I return home
After the one who said, "forever"
After the goodbyes and good nights
After when I stop enjoying myself
After the moonlight dims and
After the smoke hides the stars
After the laugh when the silence stings
After the wave when pebbles rise
After the breeze when the skin dries
After the smoke when the ashes fall
After the high ride when I crash
After it all and before it all
You were there in that bag too,
Like a shadow of my heart
The more I run and avoid you
The more desperate you become
Now, we've been sleeping on the same bed
For the last three months.
Happy?

Yes. This ends with the word happy.