What Ifs

What if I told you, that there is a monster under my bed
That keeps me awake at night, frozen.
What if I told you that I burn down with it
Everytime I light up my cigarette.
What if I told you the things I've been meaning to
But you don't listen.

What if I told you, that I don't like sunlight
Because it brings too many people in sight.
What if I told you I hate the nights
Because there's no one to hold me when I shake.
I've been meaning to,
But you don't listen.

What if I told you, the greatest distance is
Those two steps I can't take towards you.
What if I told you the blade looks to ease the pain
And that the mirror is a scary sight.
I've been meaning to,
But you don't listen.

What if I told you, that the food on the table stinks
It has been there since three days.
What if I told you the flies around that plate
Buzz your name in my ears.
I've been meaning to,
But you don't listen.

What if I showed you, the man I've become
And the things that I've learnt.
What if I told you about my day today
And about all the other things
I've been meaning to,
But you don't listen.

Edited by Manish Kulshrestha.